Ten.Eight Hundred & Thirty-Two

1. How is it already time to get up?

2. I put on a dress and a big sweater, grab my water bottle and make my way to the kitchen. Yes. Next house, half this size, twice as much land.

3. Coffee and leftover pound cake. The kids are still fast asleep.

4. The ride back is quiet. I respond to her DM that I find it easier to use process of elimination. That it’s much easier for me to pinpoint my dislikes than my likes. It seems to work for me.

5. I remind myself that we agreed upon a new way of doing this. So I”ll sit here for today, but next week we’ll do this together.

6. Skin warmed by sun. I still have to wrap my shawl around me when the breeze blows. I can tell which one is mine because of the thick salt ring around the hat. Someone should really wash that.

7. I ask her to make the muffins for me while I make dinner. I realize that I won’t be able to get through this new weekly schedule without some kind of meal prep on Sundays. If i can get a couple pans of muffins and a batch of granola made each Sunday, that’s at least 4 days of breakfast. They can add fruit to either one and that should be sufficient. Right?

8. All of this is just one big experiment.

9. March feels so far away.

10. I miss the ocean.