Ten.Eight Hundred & Thirty-Six
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She comes today. I won’t see her until tomorrow, but she comes today.
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Reheat muffins, make coffee. He will want those leftover hashbrowns. I really need to drink my water before I eat anything.
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I worry. I worry about the loss of dream time, of free time, of art time. I worry that I won’t find a new rhythm that makes space for the other kinds of work I know I’m meant to be doing. I mourn the prior life while also trying to hold the potential of this new one. I’ll figure it out. Right?
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What is with the traffic today? Sirens from behind. State Highway Patrol. The voice says this is still the fastest route.
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The problem with listening to podcasts when you drive is that it’s impossible to write anything down. I try to repeat things in my head, a desperate attempt to remember. And then I realize that it’s okay. That whatever wants to stick will stick, even if it’s not the words and only the feeling.
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Slow.
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He left gifts on the table and each one is wrapped in the cutest red and white Japanese wrapping paper. I wish I could find out what’s inside.
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Gratitude for leftovers.
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She’s here.
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Another bath. Another chunk of Delight devoured. I could get used to this.