Ten.Eight Hundred & Fifty-Three

1. So grateful for the light.

2. Coffee and donuts on a Sunday with an extra hour of sleep. Thank you.

3. Resuming this means a renewed commitment to the studies. I do need to decide, at some point, whether I really want it or not.

4. I watch him cross the street. Multi-colored beanie. Long-sleeve oversized white t-shirt. Black pants that stop just above the ankle. White ankle socks. No shoes. In the shopping cart he' pushes what looks like only a thick white blanket and two white pillows. But he has no shoes. He has no shoes. I watch him press the button to cross the street. As he walks back to his cart he spreads his arms out and twirls. But he has no shoes.

5. Babera d’Asti, Barbaresco, Amarone della Valpolicella, Barbaresco. None of these are wines I really know, all of them are okay. Sufficient enough but it’s clear that you do need to spend upwards of $50 to get classic examples of these.

6. But this is just silly.

7. I don’t want to, but I know I need to. And so I start with granola, then the muffins, then muffin-tin hash browns. Now the soup. My legs are tired. That’s all I can do for today.

8. I rush to see if I am the one that’s made a mistake and I’m not. Which is a relief but it doesn’t erase the rush of anxiety. I realize that I care a lot/too much about what others think. I still have so much to work through.

9. The sick nectarine tree is the first one in the yard to turn its leaves.

10. Early to bed.