Ten.Eight Hundred & Fifty-Seven

1. I close the sliding glass door before heading into the bathroom. Maybe today will be cleaning day when I get home from work. Trying to be proactive about what I need this weekend.

2. I remind myself to ask mom’s group about children and anxiety because what she described to me last night sounded like anxiety. I have it now but I don’t recall having it at that age.

3. Curious.

4. All that build-up for 5 minutes.

5. Sara Bareilles singalong. I wish I remembered to sing more often.

6. Chefs are all the same. So serious.

7. Is it just me or does he look like someone we all know?

8. I run water for my bath but it’s too hot so I make them hot chocolate while I wait for the water to cook just a little.

9. I grab both collections by Sharon Olds. I decide to read the one with the more beautiful cover to take to the bath but when I flip through the pages I realize it’s a signed copy. “To Amanda from Sharon Olds. March ‘10. NYU.” Too sacred for the bathtub.

10. Wide open. Opened wide.