Ten.Nine Hundred & One

1. 3:52 am.

2. So much red.

3. How can I be so disciplined in all other areas except for this?

4. No one else is awake yet. I take my mug of nettle tea to the sofa and write. I keep getting distracted by the flicker of the candles. This is what Saturdays are for: quite, warmth, candlelight.

5. It’s still early enough that even though it’s the weekend before Christmas, the stores are fairly quiet. As in I can move about freely with my cart and take my time.

6. He has on a Packers sweatshirt. I smile to myself. I regret not saying something about being a Bears fan.

7. Mac and cheese and a pour of Charles Wetmore in the 8 year-olds bed because they are playing xBox in the kitchen and he’s watching football in our bedroom and so this is the only refuge. I slink beneath the covers and turn on “Glow Up.”

8. “I’m already so bored from watching t.v.” And it’s only the first day of Christmas break.

9. Undone.

10. I should have bought dessert.