Ten.Nine Hundred & Thirty

1. Gray, gray, gray.

2. I know what to do. I may not want to do it.

3. He lets me have the tv to watch my paranormal shows before the football begins.

4. Pages and pages. Highlighting. Exhausting myself.

5. I tell her that maybe it’s just that I’m afraid to put it all in writing and then have to commit to it. And then what do I do if it turns out that I don’t like it?

6. Trying to distinguish fear from intuition. Is it just that maybe I want to do something completely different?

7. These kids.

8. No nap. But lots of laying in bed and being tired.

9. ”Of course, I had less time for reading now, and sometimes I would hold a book in my hand as an object, not as a vessel I had to drain immediately—and I would have a flick of fear, as in a dream when you find yourself in the wrong building or have forgotten the time for the exam and understand that this is only the tip of some shadowy cataclysm or lifelong mistake.” - “Cortes Island” by Alice Munro

10. I will fall asleep before all of them.