Ten.Nine Hundred & Fifty-Four

1. Drenched from night sweat.

2. Less of that needing to throw up feeling.

3. Gratitude for all the ways in which we’ve been supported. The ways in which he is feeling supported.

4. I am almost done. I am almost done.

5. The cows have shifted pasture. This must be why they were out here picking up trash earlier in the week.

6. I realize that when people ask where I am going and what I will be doing there, I get a little quiet. It’s a mixture of sadness, fear, imposter syndrome. I will miss this beautiful place. I will miss some of the people. But the timing is right. I didn’t even know how right it was.

7. I find the cloth for the hammock and drag the stand out into a patch of sun. I go back inside and grab the Ste. Michelle blanket and Vegetable Kingdom. I don’t know why I think I’m going to read. I just close my eyes and lay in the sun.

8. I tell her that what I really need is a break. That while Resistance Served fortified me in so many ways, it also let me emotionally exhausted. And I am still so deep in my feelings. Add to that everything else in life that has happened in a week.

9. What does sustainable labor look like in the context of my own life?

10. Bo Ssam. I could eat the ginger scallion sauce on everything. Already ready for bed. I can do hard things.