Ten.Nine Hundred & Eighty-Three

1. Finally Friday.

2. So dark. I start the coffee, make more than I need. I hope he wakes up soon. He said he would get donuts.

3. Quiet.

4. We can’t agree on a song and so we ride in silence.

5. I agree with him We do need a plan. But I can tell he’s freaking out which is making me freak out and I am already freaking out. What the hell, 2020? New job, lost job, pandemic, so much uncertainty. I tell him to go for a long bike ride.

6. Whole body is so tense.

7. “The Job. The Career. The Calling.” He says that one is not necessarily better than another. I know where I am on the continuum and I know I need a shift.

8. Never again.

9. Not the Marshall.

10. I could be okay with it.