Ten.Nine Hundred & Eighty-Six

1. Just act like everything is mostly normal. I don’t think I can sleep much longer anyway.

2. Coffee. Bacon. Morning pages. Still so quiet. The bonus of breaks: later bedtimes which lead to later wake-up times which mean a longer stretch of quiet in the mornings for me.

3. Adjust the agenda.

4. Call from a friend. We toss around ideas on how to pivot based on the circumstances. He reminds me sometimes it’s best to ask for forgiveness instead of permission. Show the value. (But also, so tired of trying to prove value.)

5. Outlines.

6. Idris has it.

7. The email says there will be a press conference about a “shelter in place” order. I read the names of the six counties. Alameda and Contra Costa are on the list. Of course they are. I knew they would be. Pivot again.

8. Our Resistance Served family trying to pull together a virtual happy hour. I love it. I love them. I’m sad to not be in New Orleans reliving some of those moments.

9. I talk to Dad and Mom and Brother and Nieces.

10. I tell her it’s my worst spring break too. Do you think I want to be stuck here?

11. I should really go get those lemons off the tree.

12. I know the answer isn’t what he wanted to hear but it is the truth. And I remind him that both feelings and both truths can exist at the same time. Neither is wrong or bad, they just are. And I feel my whole body lighten in just being able to finally say that.

13. Not the last bottle of Eric’s.