Ten.One Thousand & Sixty-Six

1. Nightmare: an Instagram post calling me out for being in a particular position of power and not using it.

2. What is my role in this situation? What am I willing to sacrifice? What will be the easiest to bear: the uncomfortable conversation or the confirmation of one’s intuition?

3. A second comment.

4. I email her for support. Because she’s the only other person I know, for sure, with the wisdom required.

5. Maia told me a month ago to get my stuff together.

6. That post. The first thing I see when I open the app—that’s a sign.

7. There it is.

8. The cheese is here. The cheese is here.

9. Emotionally exhausted. I can’t even focus on the puzzle pieces. He offers me a vodka lemonade.

10. She reminds me that I already know what to do. And that I’m a manifestor. Ask for all that you want. Don’t ask for crumbs; ask for the whole cake. Use moon magic.

11. 95 in the shade feels good. I watch the reflection of the palm branches in the window, swaying in the wind. It is quiet. We drink the Brooks 2017 Rastaban Pinot Noir. Light, complex, acid, graphite, fruit, and spice, a long finish.

12. Don’t let them steal your joy.