Ten.One Thousand & Ninety

1. There will be duck today.

2. Waffles with butter and some plum jam. Coffee. Water.

3. I didn’t plan well enough for today.

4. He asks me if I want to go for a ride, and I agree to come along because I really shouldn’t be working today. Not on this. Not on my birthday.

5. Zooming in the car.

6. I feel like I should be more excited than I am.

7. The piece is written, but it’s not quite there. I send it to her anyway. It’s just not as dramatic as the first one. But it’s done. We still

8. This conversation feels very adult. But it’s good to be thinking this far ahead.

9. This one smells like smoked meat. This one smells like a can of black olives. This one smells like tar. Wild.

10. He asks me why I’m not more excited. I tell him that I just am not sure exactly what’s going on. I’m tired. I’m in shock. I’m not sure how I feel.