Ten.One Thousand, One Hundred & Fifteen

1. I can already sense the shortening of days. The morning light takes a little longer to arrive.

2. But did anyone ask you?

3. And since I didn’t ask, how do I let go of the energy of it and carry it as my own?

4. I worry that maybe I won’t like it because I don’t know if I really remember.

5. Why are my hands shaking? Why am I nervous? I know why I’m nervous.

6. Oddly, not nervous for this. I did not prepare but I think I am saying all of the right things. At least, I’m not pretending. I’m not pretending and that feels right.

7. Bright white.

8. Burger. Fries. Ranch dressing?

9. So much wine. All of it surprising. All of it from Monte Rosso. All of it so well-balanced.

10. Cool breeze through the cabana.

11. She says that her female crews are the best crews because they are fast and immaculate. Of course they are.

12. Is this real life right now?

13. Countdowns.