Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Twenty-Six

1. Getting better at navigating in the dark.

2. Interrupting the quiet with the sound of the grinder.

3. Move the table outside. The three of us can fit in the dining room again, right? Vacuum. Light incense.

4. I wish she could come three times a week.

5. Jittery and distracted. Week two of the declutter and realizing that I have to rework the boundary on tech now that work is thrown back into the mix. How responsive does one need to be?

6. Rain. Real rain. Soothing rain. The kind of rain that makes you want to go back to bed and read until you fall asleep.

7. No snacks.

8. It’s a weird feeling seeing it posted. Realizing, once again, that even if you are the one who initiates change, it can still be painful. Even when doing the leaving is the best thing to do, you can still feel the sting of loss.

9. Can Dream Big Darling be a monthly thing?

10. 2005 Araujo Estate Eisele Vineyard Sauvignon Blanc. 1978 Robert Mondavi Cabernet Sauvignon. 1975 Chateau St. Jean Cabernet Sauvignon. 1985 Diamond Creek Gravelly Meadow Cabernet Sauvignon. 1975 Joseph Phelps Vineyards Eisele Vineyard Cabernet Sauvignon. 1997 Dunn Vineyards Howell Mountain Cabernet Sauvignon. 1996 Araujo Estate Eisele Vineyard Syrah.

11. I tell her that my goal is to own land in Mendocino, mixed-use, but definitely with a vineyard. She asks me if I’ve talked to Theo.

12. Note to self: Speak up more. Let people know what you want. Someone can help you get it.