Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Fifty-Three

1. Why is he already up?

2. Dream Big Darling.

3. I am fretting over this piece. I start and stop and start again. I remember that she said we can make this experience whatever we want it to be. So I pick an old piece and work through it again. Adding and subtracting. With even more distance the story feels different.

4. Just need to finish.

5. Cold toes. The downside of being next to the windows all day.

6. Cleaning did not get done. This irritates me.

7. Daily walk. The jackhammer is so loud. These trucks are from Indiana. I wonder how long they’ve been away from their family.

8. Release. Validation. Not that I should have needed more validation but now I know I’m on the right track.

9. “Relax the hold of darkness and be at cause.”

10. I find the images and send them off. I tell him that I can’t decide if I want to return. I can return, but with boundaries. I can return if I remember why I am there in the first place.

11. I ask him to drive me to the store and buy me flowers.

12. It’s supposed to rain this weekend. And the power is supposed to be shut off on Saturday. I’m looking forward to the slowdown.

13. Gott’s.

14. I want to go to bed but they are talking to us, really talking to us, and they are beautiful and funny and their minds are expanding. It’s wild.