Ten.One Thousand, Three Hundred & One

1. The floor is so cold I have to put my socks on right away.

2. I’ve stopped counting how many days it’s been. I’m craving a cup of coffee. But I know I shouldn’t. But I want it. But I can’t.

3. I don’t.

4. The sound of the rain. The tiny waves in the pond below. Fog weaving through the trees.

5. Look at all that bulk juice for sale. Yep. It’s who I thought it was.

6. Someone asks me if the glass has wine. I laugh. Then I go back to the picture. Cranberry juice, cranberry juice. Do I need to make a disclaimer? I am not a day-drinker.

7. More meetings should be done over tea.

8. He asks me to talk about what I did, specifically. I tell them that after getting my prescription, I don’t really remember what I did. Only that it was work. And then, I was able to try something new with my lights and camera and I got really close to the real deal. I did something new and that was exciting.

9. No one else seems to have much to say.

10. I sit on the bathroom floor in front of the heater and read through old Instagram posts. I miss my writing. That kind of writing. I miss the old days when you got to watch people make art with their life.