Ten.One Thousand, Three Hundred & Ninety-One

1. I imagine it’s a family of squirrels. Or maybe it’s a big nest of birds. Whoever they are, they are at their loudest at 5:30 am.

2. The sky is already beginning to glow.

3. They arrive tomorrow, and I have done none of the things that I thought I would have done in order to prepare for them. I’ve forgotten to take time off. I’ve not gone to the grocery store. I have not cleaned. I have not bought another set of towels.

4. Focus.

5. I tell her all the things. “She cried?”

6. She asks me how I’m making space to rest.

7. “I’ve been asking the ancestors and the universe and God for signs. You are one of many this week. Thank you for that,” I say.

8. She’s deep. Even through the screen, I can feel her ease.

9. All of this is information.

10. He’s completely right. Everything here is so expensive. And we don’t know how we’ll make it work, but we believe it can, somehow.