Ten.One Thousand, Four Hundred & Sixty

1. It’s going to be hot today.

2. I open and close my mouth to get the jaw back in place. Maybe one day this will no longer be a thing.

3. He’s right. Lately, it’s been so much quieter.

4. I trace the ceiling with my hands and my eyes, lean so far back that I am blinded by the sun. I smile.

5. Maybe he is right. Maybe I am looking for the problems because I think I should be afraid. I think it shouldn’t work.

6. If it wasn’t right, I wouldn’t still be thinking about it.

7. Slow down.

8. Why am I giving this so much energy?

9. Summer heat. BLTs and melon and artichokes and potato salad and wine. And the mixture of gratitude and sadness.

10. What’s next?