Ten.One Thousand, Five Hundred & Forty-Three

1. Morning meditation.

2. Less moaning than last week, but still feel all the places that are sore and tight.

3. I pause at the top of the stairs and look at the way the light is falling across the space. It is still quiet. It is still so very beautiful.

4. Coffee in a regular mug, in the car, with white pants. Living on the edge.

5. He says that for not the one very hard thing, we wouldn’t be experiencing all of these really good things. I am not entirely convinced that the only way to good is through pain. But perhaps the pain brings clarity.

6. I fill a cart with pumpkins. I remind him that last year I didn’t buy fall decorations because we were evacuated.

7. Tank sample of syrah. Barrel samples of the rose and chardonnay.

8. Laundry and more laundry.

9. I pull the cards and they are all contrary. Not surprised. Upside down is exactly how I feel.

10. Long night but a good night.