Ten.One Thousand, Eight Hundred & Forty-One

1. I broke the streak on accident.

2. Maybe it wasn’t an accident. Maybe it was just what needed to happen on account of everything that was always happening - has been happening - continues to happen.

3. I wonder if the specialness of what was accomplished is now moot.

4. Do I start over again from one?

5. No. I just keep plugging along.

6. It is hot. So very hot. This kind of heat makes you ask yourself all kinds of questions.

7. This kind of heat is revelatory.

8. I rearrange the flowers at the dining room table while he cooks. I tell him about this problem of no poker face. “I just know I looked irritated. And I was.”

9. I set the empty vases outside to dry.

10. It’s okay to begin again.

11. I just really miss creating.