Ten.One Thousand, Nine Hundred & Three

1. A little bit of morning light before the sky darkens again with fog.

2. The sun looks weird and big and bright as we drive down the trail.

3. When it’s just the two of us in the car, he has so much more to say. “Have a nice day,” he says quietly as he closes the door.

4. Don’t forget the tacos. Don’t forget the tacos.

5. First one in. Print more calendars. Drink hot tea. Answer emails.

6. Can’t focus.

7. I am disappointed and a little bit shocked, but also not surprised.

8. I sit on the gym floor and stretch out my legs and tell the other coach about my day. I ask one of the girls how their day was. She asks me about mine. “I wish I could have switched with you.”

9. I have to take a break because they are asking questions faster than I can answer and I have a headache. I send them to go get water while I regroup.

10. I’ve got his cold. I know I do. I slide beneath the blankets and close my eyes.