Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Twenty-Three

1. Five feels too long. Maybe we start with 3.

2. Sunshine.

3. My voice is back but so is the headache.

4. Sometimes the best response is no response.

5. More waiting.

6. A sunny spot against the window. Evan. Cassy. I will try to remember their names next time.

7. 2019 POE Pinot Munier.

8. You don’t get your time back.

9. I say to myself that it is nice to be able to relax and watch. But I’m not really relaxed. And I’m analyzing more than watching. Thinking about what I can do differently next season. Dreaming about what it would be like to replicate the same kind of intensity, tension, rawness.

10. “Experience reveals little about your potential.” - Hidden Potential

Ten.One Thousand & Thirty-Eight

1. The sound of the sprinklers. I remember this from last year: waking up to that sfpppeee of water shooting out of the hole from the drip irrigation.

2. He’s up which means I can get up without feeling guilty about disturbing him.

3. I should probably stop sending emails at 6:30 in the morning.

4. Maybe we can do it.

5. They look like they’re racing. One, a very tiny one, creeping slowly over the hose.

6. In every conversation, so many synchronicities. Which means maybe it’s not just me. And that feels good.

7. We talk for 3.5 hours. We just have a hard time keeping it short and sweet. But we are not shallow women.

8. I need a break.

9. “Rest in your knowing.”

10. It’s hot. Very hot. I can feel it radiating through the umbrella.

11. I miss them. I remind myself to just keep holding the vision. It’s all possible.