Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Twenty-Four

1. Three more minutes. Two-day streak.

2. The last of the almond milk. The last of the coffee?

3. Finally Friday.

4. Sage smoke.

5. I step outside and lift my arms toward the sun. Ready for summer.

6. Wine delivery. Some more to add to the fridge.

7. Almost there. Almost there.

8. But do you really want to eat chicken teriyaki again? I don’t think so.

9. I draw the Mountain Lion. The first responsibility of leadership is to tell the truth.

10. 2021 Lingua Franca Avni Pinot Noir.

Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Twenty-Three

1. Five feels too long. Maybe we start with 3.

2. Sunshine.

3. My voice is back but so is the headache.

4. Sometimes the best response is no response.

5. More waiting.

6. A sunny spot against the window. Evan. Cassy. I will try to remember their names next time.

7. 2019 POE Pinot Munier.

8. You don’t get your time back.

9. I say to myself that it is nice to be able to relax and watch. But I’m not really relaxed. And I’m analyzing more than watching. Thinking about what I can do differently next season. Dreaming about what it would be like to replicate the same kind of intensity, tension, rawness.

10. “Experience reveals little about your potential.” - Hidden Potential

Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Twenty-Two

1. Hard to believe it is actually the end.

2. Cold and damp seeping in through my slippers. This coffee cup doesn’t quite fit in the cup holder like I thought it would. Quiet ride this morning.

3. Short day.

4. What even is the point?

5. You can hear the fatigue in our voices.

6. The strange feeling of space re-entering the schedule. A void to either be filled - hopefully with something meaningful - or left empty and appreciated.

7. I will never understand.

8. Tillamook Marionberry Pie.

9. When you listen with intention, you can stitch together enough of what is and isn’t said to draw a snapshot of the heart and mind.

10. On a scale of 1-5, how engaged were you today?

Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Twenty-One

1. I still don’t know what today is.

2. Down to six.

3. I always get what I want; I just do my best to do it the right way.

4. Tuesday morning rides.

5. Why am I here?

6. Hanger steak. Potatoes. Flatbread. Salad. Clif Lede. Rutherford. Roundabout Midnight Rock Block. Poetry. Walking by the Dark Side of the Moon.

7. Did he really ask me if I could roll over and let them have two free points? And is he asking me if I’m actually going to do it?

8. And now it’s over.

9. The tears are because you care.

10. We are doing something right.

Ten.One Thousand, Two Hundred & Twenty

1. Forgot there was no more wood.

2. Same outfit, three days in a row. It is still raining.

3. Indeed, I am halfway there.

4. Morning pages in my fire seat, but there is no fire. I pretend that it is ablaze, roaring, making my feet sweat.

5. The road is littered with bits of dead limbs and pine cones, bright green leaves and runaway mulch.

6. Home is where I belong.

7. Focus.

8. Well, there goes dodgeball and donuts.

9. “So I remember when we were drivin', drivin' in your car / Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk / City lights lay out before us / And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder / And I had a feeling that I belonged / I had a feelin' I could be someone / Be someone, be someone…”

10. I should have gone.