Ten.Nine Hundred & Seventeen

1. In the dream he convinced me to leave the doctor’s office and then I felt guilty for leaving which ruined the rest of my day. I think it’s time for me to wake up. Did I forget to set my alarm?

2. A little too leisurely. 15 minutes behind. Still enough time to make banana muffins but there won’t be much time for anything else.

3. All that celery. Very little juice.

4. I get to drive his car today which means that the podcasts will come through crystal clear.

5. Clear sky. Wind turbines standing still, at attention, atop the greening hills. Can see so, so far away.

6. I know this feeling. I put a name to it right away. Why am I feeling said feeling? How can I shift this feeling into one that feels empowering instead of defeating?

7. Huh.

8. Take your time.

9. She asks me why I never told her that I had won an art contest when grandma worked for Pepsi. I had forgotten. And oh yeah, I also had a piece of artwork in an art museum in North Carolina. I had forgotten. Yeah, I guess I’ve always been an artist. Also, we should move to a school district where you actually have art.

10. “If you change, so will others around you, or else they will drop out of your life.”