Ten.One Thousand & Forty-Three

1. It’s time.

2. Dark skies and bird song.

3. I take one of the loaves out of the refrigerator and then slice up some strawberries. Honey-cinnamon butter. I remember the days when this used to be all that I needed to do. When my mornings could be slow and simple.

4. He rarely calls me this early in the morning. He’s checking to make sure I’m okay. He’s noticed that I haven’t posted anything in my Instagram stories in a few days. I chuckle. “Sometimes I just need a break,” I say. Then I ask him about his COVID test; it’s negative which is reassuring. It means the surgery will happen tomorrow as planned.

5. Still no sun.

6. Her interview with Melissa Alexander makes me teary-eyed. I want to be mad at the questions she asked but I can’t be. Because that’s what makes the conversation so tender.

7. I read the email. I did request feedback. I can’t be scared of it. And, it turns out, there was nothing to be scared of.

8. I speak low and slow. Like honey. They are hanging on to every word and I am not saying anything they actually want to hear. But they are listening.

9. Just a little bit of sun makes a difference.

10. I really, really need to meditate more.