Ten.One Thousand & Seventy-Nine

1. Forgot coffee again.

2. It ceases to be fun when it is no longer a challenge. I’d rather focus on more complex and nuanced issues.

3. What is the next thing?

4. Can’t focus. Can’t focus. Focusing on the wrong thing.

5. But this is exactly what I want.

6. He tells me that I am not myself, that I need to get back to my practices. He means that I need to meditate. He means that I am the one he calls a buddha. Where is my compassion? I am just angry, and there is a reason for that anger. But he is right. I can’t let it consume me.

7. I’ve been sitting here for too long. I need to stop. But I also want just to be done.

8. Pain.

9. Miso butter on steak.

10. “Are you navigating towards power, or are you realizing you are powerful?” - Ashtin Berry